I am fighting a battle at the moment which I have won and lost my entire life. Each day the war rages at a different level. A different level of unbearable pain, a different level of overpowering strength. Some days I wake up and I get lost in the light as it rejuvenates my soul. Other days the darkness is so crippling I fall to the bottom of a seemingly bottomless pit. Through it all, I yearn for love. I believe there is light. The light shifts in to guide me, the love holds me close to lift me up. This is why I love Regina Mills. We have fought the same fight. Though she is fictional, she makes me feel like I am not fighting alone even when life feels hopeless. I feel like a piece of who I am is exposed for all the world to see. We are one in the same. Regina is my hope.
When I was younger, the horse I was riding ran away with me. I was about to be thrown, I would’ve been killed. This woman, she had no idea who I was, she came charging after me. She saved me. She risked her own life. It changed me. My mother always told me to keep goodness in my heart and this woman proved that she was right. It taught me that there can be this genuine, selfless connection between people. Even strangers.
I think #EvilRegal being this week’s Once Upon a Time hashtag is a big deal. It’s not just a shout out, but it makes us completely official as Lana’s fan base. I know all we needed was for Lana herself to appoint us that way to make it special, but the fact that ABC acknowledged it in such a way is important. It means they are paying attention and they care about our unconditional love and loyalty to our Queen.
It just really made me smile and made me very proud to be an Evil Regal. Maybe it’s just me.
Emma looks like Friedrich Von Trapp from The Sound of Music. You’re welcome.
FYHM Challenge 15: Magical Hair
FYHM Challenge 15: Regina’s Most Defining Moment (Season 2)
I wasn’t sure which of these moments to choose for this challenge, then I realized the first one inevitably led to the second one, so I went with both. By the end of season one, Regina learned that she could love again, in a way she didn’t expect, she really did love Henry. And as the course always runs for her, I think of one of my favorite theatre lyrics: The price of love is loss, but still we pay, we love anyway. That is what Regina has done since that first pivotal moment in We Are Both when she admitted to Henry that she didn’t know how to love very well and that she wanted to redeem herself. Every action from then on, she has thought through, thinking of Henry and not just impulsively acting on her pain or anger. It’s a change in her that not even Cora’s agenda to obtain Rumpel’s dagger could steer her from. You could see it all over her face as she stood there holding Johanna’s heart, while Cora coaxed Mary Margaret into handing over the dagger. Regina was appalled at the lengths Cora had gone to just to reclaim a little power. The entire time, she truly believed Cora was doing all of this to help her get Henry back so she could have the family and the love she has always so desperately wanted. Despite the entire town of Storybrooke seeing her as “the evil queen” she’s worked so hard to see the good in every situation because she believes that her life in this tiny town could have been a new start and she thought that if she could change so drastically, her mother could too.
Leading into the second one, that’s where Mary Margaret was wrong - Regina didn’t have to imagine real love. She knows what real love is, and I know Mary Margaret knew that and used it just to get to her. But again, Regina took the heart and tried to save her mother because she wanted Henry back so badly. The two moments are inexplicably linked and run so deep within her. Cora finally feeling the love for her daughter and uttering the words “This would’ve been enough. You would’ve been enough.” is all Regina ever wanted from her - to be enough - to be herself - to be free. And the way the end unfolded for Regina and Cora will not only shape who Regina is for the rest of the season, but likely for the rest of the series. How it will affect her, we have yet to see, but deep down she is always going to love Henry. Henry will always be her salvation, despite any of his actions because he’ll always be that little light in her heart, no matter how lost it gets in the darkness. Light is always there. And the more “evil” Regina becomes in her darkness, the more she is flawed and humanized and something will lead her back eventually. These specific events were definitely catalysts for her happy ending. You can’t have a happy ending without an epic battle and Regina fights her battles like nothing else. Fight on, strong lady. The love you do have is your strength.
aren’t you… a damsel in distress?
alone and broken in the woods… again: the regina mills story.